Long time no blog
• Posted by Ego on December 3rd, 2007
Hello and welcome to the colossal bitch session about my life.
First I fell that none of my talents are ever truly recognised by anyone in the world unless they are drunk, which really sucks, because the thing is that drunk people never ever remember say what they said or doing what they did. Another thing about this is that when you’re surrounded by people that are smarter than you or people that have bigger personalities you always come out second best, the girls of this world they want the big personalities or people they can boss around, hello to my cousins, and you know what I fit into neither of these categories. I have neither a big personality or am I going to except being bossed around by a woman. The one thing that really pisses me off though is that I always find the girl that is troubled or looking for someone but I never step up. I know that I should but guess what I think I truly am a coward. I’ll take a punch from anyone but as soon as I see a girl bang I’m running for the hills mentally. I don’t know what it is I even know that I’m one of the med schools big flirts and you know what I think that I may be forever doomed to be the guy that gets the cheek kiss, the guy that protects girls when they are vulnerable and never gets anything in return. I feel that this isn’t there fault anymore actually I know it’s not their fault. My problem is that I don’t try and get what I want I do something for them and expect something in return. I don’t get anything and guess what I get pissed off and as a guest on Oprah was saying “anger is just your body telling you that you’re not getting what you want”. I agree totally with this principle actually since the moment I heard that my anger made a lot more sense to me. I think that there is now only one thing for me to do to get rid of this anger and if you can follow a logical sequence of events you can guess what that is. I need to get what I want, but the thing is what do I want? What drives me to get angry? Does the crows getting caned get me angry? Of course but can I do anything about it? No way. So what should I try to achieve with my life? Should I have a set of goals? I think that the only way for me to achieve a true happiness is to discover my true goals in life and achieve them. But should I set goals that are clearly only long term or should I create commitments that should only give me short term satisfaction? That’s something I think I need help deciding on and this is why I’m asking you the loyal readers of the Adelaide med blog to answer this questions. I think that this is my inner coward showing through again because guess what I can’t make a simple little decision. I don’t even know what I’m afraid of but oh well I guess you guys might help.
Thanks
P.S. I know oh my god a guy watches Oprah :O
Hey Ego.
This would have to be the one I’ve been waiting for for a while. Good on you for coming clean.
Are you angry at the moment? I can’t answer what you think you should work towards in life, but it is good to have a goal. If that goal is to have a deep and meaningful relationship with someone, so be it. I am willing to wait a lifetime for a lifetime of happiness - though I hope I don’t have to wait that long.
You have plenty of time mate. First time relationships are not a simple little decision by any standards and if you don’t feed ready, chances are you aren’t, and if you think you are ready, who knows, you could be taking it too quickly, or, you might just be ready. Don’t rush into it. Only the best will do, so, think long term. Don’t start a relationship with someone who you know you definitely are not going to keep that relationship with forever, though unfortunately, it takes a couple of tries to get it right sometimes. Girls are complex.
Heck, guys are complex too, according to another of the Adelaide medbloggers.
Ego - also, may I just say that perhaps you could hang around people that don’t get drunk? Or at least when you flirt, flirt when they aren’t drunk?
I’m sure you know that drunkenness can lead to bad things happening, like breakups of strong relationships.
Might I also say that there are girls outside of med school and if you couldn’t find a good potential soulmate in it this year, there will be more coming in next year and more outside it.
I wish you all the best in your endeavours. One day you’ll be more than the guy with the cheek kiss and then you’ll know the wait will have been worth it.
Protecting the girls when they are vulnerable is one of your stronger aspects I think that is one of your talents that is recognized for sure. Looking for a relationship with girls who are vulnerable is not a good idea though, because when they are vulnerable they aren’t looking for a relationship; they’re looking for protection. At least, that’s my analysis - timing is key.
P.S. Nothing wrong with watching Oprah. Though I don’t watch her myself, I highly respect her and what she does. Oprah for President!
I know I’ve already written in the blog but actually theres more stuff I forgot to mention. Personally I think that we can’t help you make any decision as we are not you. What we think is best for you might not BE best for you. Decisions are a lonely thing. You think that people can help you make them but really, its ultimately up to you. Do not worry, we’re all rooting behind you! Alwayz!
As for being the kiss on the cheek guy, doesn’t that show you that you are NOT being outshone by other supposedly better guys or pushovers? Like Mana says, someday you will be more than the kiss on the cheek. I think then perhaps that maybe the wait was worth it. Maybe. And I hope that it is.
Rei said this on December 4th, 2007 at 5:45 pm
Good day, sir.
Oprah is sweet. Today they were interviewing a man with 3 wives: it was like Jerry Springer, but without the ambience.
Perhaps ponder over the words of the wise P.C. McGraw, “Sometimes you make the right decision; sometimes you make the decision right.”
Dave said this on December 4th, 2007 at 11:04 pm
Thanks for writing your thoughts Ego… I’m glad you’ve come out and said what you have. I think writing it out is a really important step in coming to terms with yourself and understand how you work better in order to fit with others in this world. It seems like something Oprah would say… But seriously, from my experience the world around us is determined by our own actions, and more or less everything that happens to us is a reaction to what we, ourselves, do. I a NOT saying you are to blame for your problems, but that it’s always helpful to put things in perspective if I ever find myself more frustrated than I should be, or just downright angry. What people have said here should have showed you that you are not alone in your thoughts and it’s also good to bring them up here. Sometimes it is really easier to write than it is to talk…